Don't Laugh I'll Cry

When I drive past a graveyard
I still hold my breath
I guess on some level
The thought of what's next makes my stomach hurt
When I get like that
I don't know where to go with it
So I just say something inappropriate
Like, "Must be nice to skip work"

If I act like I don't care
It's 'cause I care too much
If I act like I'm not scared
It's 'cause I'm scared as fuck
If I make a joke that you don't think is funny
About how you'll get all of my money after I die
It's 'cause if I don't laugh, I'll cry

When I kiss you goodbye at the airport
And I say a plane crashes cheaper than a [?] I can't help it
No, I can't help it
Wish I could stop all these cyclical thoughts
Like one day you're here and the next day you're not
I know without you it'd kill me if I ever felt it

If I act like I don't care
It's 'cause I care too much
If I act like I'm not scared
It's 'cause I'm scared as fuck
If I make a joke that you don't think is funny
About how you'll get all of my money after I die
It's 'cause if I don't laugh, I'll cry

When I drive past a graveyard
I still hold my breath
I guess on some level
The thought of what's next makes my stomach hurt